blog title says it all...

i'm having one of those moments... feeling real alone... ever know what it's like to be in a room full of people and yet still feel all alone...
I realized one thing whenever i feel this crappy, you know what makes me feel betteR??? it's the one and only thing i have found so far and even at times it doesn't work.. it's playing with a little baby.... yeah... or a cute little child... not those that could bite me and scream at me... or worse kick me when i'm down <---- haha.. but just a sweet little angel child....
i really really don't like feeling this way....
here's my theory...
it's brought about by a freakin' landslide of things.. most importantly, hormones... female hormones... this kinda feeling comes about because of something like that...
it's also because i'm too free.. and i spent the day bumming in the house... actually it's been days... have been unwell, vomiting and nausea.. so, haven't really been out...
it's always good to get out... and of course thinking too much... i thought about so many things... esp my life while i was in IMU... it was so wonderful... so much joy and fun... the people the places... going out with friends... the company... the comfort.... so many things i miss....
should stop thinking now......
anyway....tomorrow or so i know this feeling won't be there and i'll look back at this and go.. "what the hell????" y did i feel so screwed up?
yeah well, then this post should go away... but.. till then.... it's here....