Back once again

Hi everyone? time to resuscitate this blog again. i suck at blogging ... y even bother. but shit bored so fine.

a lot has happened lately. I thank God for the miracles He has done.

i've been to prague.

i think i have "knight's move" thinking. I always jump from one thought to another

it makes sense to me but to whomever's talking to me it's like... "whoa, what????"

it's even more evident in my writing. Doing research now... writing a paper and did a powerpoint presentation, got exactly the same comment, you're jumping from here to there.! uh - oh scary

well anyway here's picccs

MahJong

you've seen it, you've heard and and yes i've played it!!~!~!~!~!~!

never did the mahjong room of circus casino expect to see an indian girl mah -jonging there...

thanks to cmingo, his patience and brilliant teaching skills, i've learned the game and had quite a bit of fun playing it.

it's rather bitchy to do this but i just gotta..

hahahah "I BeaT my TeaCher!!"

I won 2 games..weee.. i'm not fully clear on the calculation but catching on pretty quick.

But i owe it to my gooooood gooooood teacher CmIngo...

The rest of my day revolved a lot around parking my car. Yesterday was the day of the progress test (yeah it's yday dy since it's 4.17am and i'm just showered back and tucked into my bed blogging). I drove to Uni for the exam and decided to pay and park at the Aquatics Centre as instead of parking for free in Tai Pan coz i feared my paranoia of getting caught for doing that would nag me. (i'm tired there are gonna be a lot of typo's in this blog post)

So, i am all set looking for parking at NCP Aquatic Centre. After the first few floors i was still alright thinking that i could possibly get one at the higher floors. By the time i was almost to the top there was an area for "University Only". Did i fall under that category?? i dunno. I just went on up. As i tried to come back down because the upper levels were full as well ( maybe i was delusional but i think there was about 12 floors), I was suddenly forced to stop. There was a barrier and i suddenly started panicking that only a specific university parking card (which i don't own) will lift it. *sweat*stress*palpitations* Then , still approached the barrier and thought i could buzz whoever was on the other side of the intercom to help me out. Amazingly, as i approached the barrier, it lifted *phew*!!!!

Then, i just made my way outta the aquatics centre parking and settled for Tai Pan. As i drove into the Tai Pan parking lot, the parking guy who is always there looked at me and i panicked and fleeeeeeeeeeeeed (chicken !!!)

After a phone call i came to know about parking lots next to MRI and parked there. Then, i headed for the exams.

After the exams....

We went for dinner to tai wu. I misplaced my parking ticket. Eng tat found it. (thanks eng tat!@@!!!) and soon i was on the roads again no longer trapped in parking lots.

Seriously, parking lots are out to trap me and MisS Poh. (you know who Miss Poh is... don't you?)

OK, NOW I AM REALLY LAZY AND DROWSY AND TIRED. SO BYE BLOGGY AND BLOGGY READERS.

i'm annoYed By tHis FeeLing

u know when u study, there are moments and times where everything is just flying into your head. Then, there is the times where, you wide awake, alert but just can't concentrate. You read a sentence 3 times and finally get it and someone asks u about it in 5 mins and you can't remember. I have been studying Orthopedics. Yes, carpal tunnel and tennis elbow but all the other stuff is driving me crazy. I have so much left to do

i have

psychiaty

paeds

obs and gynae

get thru medical sch book

past year q's

The time right now is 2.48pm. I have to go to morissons and get lunch or else i will mati kebuluran. Exam is tomorrow at 2pm. I have less than 24 hours to get all of this done. I hope my mind will become a super sucking sponge by the time i get back.

I'm watching Season 1 of Desperate Housewives as I study.

I have to give up coffee.. coz i usually do so 24 hours before and exam. So it's a juicy life for me.. i've got apple mango which is delicious and pink grapefruit which is something that will kick start my engines.

I'm craving for wild grain rice and something, gonna scout the microwave food section of morrisons. I can't eat any more pasta, i may give birth to an italian.

I just wish i could get a great big hug and be told that don't worry you can do it.

I trust God to help me through this Progress Test.

"I Trust in You, O Lord"

Random Ramblings!~

Well, the weekend was brill!!! (feel like i'm writing a "karangan").

I'm stressed out about having to go in all the time for ssc, write my report and study for the progress test!

I have to go to London soon, my passport needs some sorting out! I wanna try the bayswater duck! Lets all go.. make a great weekend of it! try to top last weekend!

I'm learning so much in urology. Did you know about AUS.
it is the Artificial Ureteric Sphincter.
It's a like device involving 3 pieces. The first is a little ring around the urethra with a balloon on it that can fill up with water to create the right bit of pressure to seal the urethra or open it up!! (the sphincter!)
The next is the bit which is a little tiny water filled ball which acts as a reservoir! and then there is a bit with a ittle press button for u to pump water into the balloon at the ring around the sphinter or push another button to drain it into the reservoir to allow u to wee! Isn't that so cool!!! it's a brilliant thing for those with incompetent sphincters! Goodbye incontinence hellow dry land! so simple system.


More medical facts. Did u know that one could get an angina without a stenosis of a coronary vessel or a thrombus or a plaque? it's just syndrome x where there is angina in the presence of no angiographic abnormality!

I've been having such hectic days. I sleep by 12 plus. Up by 7. Into hospital. Back at 6 and the cycle goes on. There's a part of me that can't wait for the weekend but also knows that when the weekend comes, that means it's only a week to my exam
oh well.

Golf + Shopping

For years my father has been trying to get me interested in golf. Ever since i was a little girl. My father loves the game. He made me a member of the clubs, got a pro to coach and got me all the shoes and clubs and all. I learned the game and liked it. It's been such a long time since i held a golf club in my had. Up until yesterday...

I came to know about Play Golf this driving range just 10 mins from my place! To celebrate post osce, i went to the driving range and really got into it. Love it and can't wait to go back again. It's just so much fun. My father is thrilled about my renewed interest in it and is urging me to buy all the equipment here all over again although i have em back in Malaysia!!!

After that i went to the Trafford Centre! It was time for shopping and eating! Another visit to Carluccios... ( it's this new italian cafe in the Trafford Centre which i keep buying cakes and tarts from ). I am not getting fat though!!! (JeaLous???) hrmm, maybe i am getting fat...

Anyway, the i shopped... Haven't been shopping much lately, my latest purchases:-

1. the latest shade of the Dior Addict Ultra Gloss Reflect

2. the latest MAC liquid foundation - Mineralize Satin Finish

3. La Senza Pj's! nice and comfy. i feel like i'm sleeping on air

I am not contented yet. There is much more shopping to come.

Night night folks. Stay tuned for more tomorrow!

A Twisted Knot in My Stomach

I have been having this issue for such a long time. It's really eating me inside. I want to get away from it but it seems like there isn't much i can do. It may require a personality overhaul but am i ready to do that. AND, am i capable of doing it after not having done it for so long. No one knows about this but one whom i share it with. That person can't help me and i am not helping myself. I need a change. i need to do something about it. I feel like it's really EATING ME INSIDE. Sometimes i am free of it and it is bliss but then at a certain point in time it strikes me down. I can and must overcome this. I must not look back i must push through full throttle. Blogging does help, i don't pour it out but somehow it helps. I can tell no one. No one will understand but a few and no one will believe. There will be scepticism and betrayal. I don't think any of you will be able to make sense of this but it is but what has made me feel down today and in need of some cheering up. Thanks all of you who were such good frens to comfort me!

i love this song!!!!

Please go to the bottom of the page and play the Youtube video! this song is lovely.

Is it Just me?

I have strange body physiology. Is it just me or is everyone the same? Well, i have something to confesss. I go through stages and periods in my life when i am "high" without the well know liquid beverage to be blamed (alcohol!!!!) I am serious. I don't know why, i'm just "high" with no alcohol influence !
1.The typical charlene "high" (the most common one encountered)
* very very friendly, very chatty, not reserved at all, just all my true colours (good & bad) streaming out. Laughing like a maniac, a short attention span and just talking and talking and talking. . . (pretty loudly at times - yesterday haha the guy at the table behind my friends and i was turning over to look at us a lot). When the "high" has subsided, i am then left all "oh goodness, did i really act like that? what will they think of me now? and then i apologize profusely to those people with a text the morning after which they would probably look at and go "huh? what the hell?" the other things i ask myself are did i say that? how embrassing! they typical regrets!*

2.the paranoid charlene "high"
* this is when i can overly paranoid about something. this is like when i know i have done something, and i check whether i have done and confirm that and still keep checking. Like for instance. When i park my car, if it is in my flat area, it's fine. I will just go check if i locked it. If it is at the area outside where the main road is at a slope behind it, i check it a gazzillion times. things i check for :-

1. are my doors locked + my booth

2. is the red light blinking

3. is my steering lock on

4. is my handbrake securely up? (you see, i have this phobia that if not my car will roll down onto the main road)

5. there are no visible valuables displaying (no wallets left or gps navigation equipment lying around)

and after i've done all of that i go in and will still come out and peek again to ensure the car hasn't rolled down.

You see??? this is not normal... well, not to scare you off but that's on my extreme days.

3. the third type of "high" - the i'm sleepy so i'm high

well, this one normally happens when i'm really really tired and it occurs in the night. I will be cranky and extremely anxious about a lot of things, i will think too much and worry unnecessarily about things which when i wake up and think about i myself look back and think i was ridiculously crazy. here's i'll be thinking and replaying events in the day/over the past while and thinking and over analysing and seeing if i hurt anyone and will they be upset and think are they mad at me? do they think i'm a bitch? and seriously, in the morning, not a single one of those thoughts make the least sense to me.

4. the i'm going to pour my heart out to you "high"

Just like anyone else, i have a lot in me which i keep to myself. (seems like a shock to you huh?) There is not one person who knows everything about me. But sometimes when i'm "high" i will just get comfortable with someone and just open up a lot and pour on and on about anything that is bothering me which i usually keep to myself and not share with anyone. Those of you who know me will know that i am most probably the least confrontational person you will meet. If i am upset with someone or someone hurts me, i will not react to that person but instead just let it go and no longer will be around that person. Avoidance?Well, back to the point, at this "high" i do sometimes just pour out all this to someone. and then, i will look back and think "oh no, i shouldn't have done that" and like what was i thinking . Oh no!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah, so as you can see, i have a real bunch of strange traits. I guess that it what makes me me. Is this just me? Or is everyone some what like this to a certain extent? Any views?
(i'm sure there are a lot of typo's throughout this post. I can't be bothered to go through it. My english is not awful ok!)

-~~~~~YOU~~~~~~-

You...

Are the one always by my side

are to one who comforts me when i'm down

who protects from the rough ways of this world

hits me like a storm

You....

are the one who picks me up when i have fallen

the one who stands up for me when i can't

the one who opens my eyes to so much

You

Are the one

*the wise words of someone*

Times Have Changed

In this past 2 years i think i have grown a lot. I do not know if it is for the best or for the worse. I have always been by nature known as caring and oversensitive. But so many things have happened over the past 2 years and the people i am exposed to has reshaped my character so much. I don't like the person i have become and long to be my normal self but in life it's so difficult to be that way.
I look back at a simpler time when people were genuine and sincere. In my whole life i always thought of a lot of people as friends but now i look at things differently. i have friends and then there are acquaintances. This is something my father always thought me since i was young.
He also thought me to trust no one. And up till today, there is no one in my life i trust completely besides my father and my mother. Everyone else in life has the potential to hurt you and to "use & abuse" you. *quoted from the brilliant See Lina* haha
As time goes by i do realize that my good qualities are being burried deeper and deeper within me and the cold ice queen is visible outside. Haha, but this FACADE never lasts for long, there are bursts of my normal self coming out from time to time.
For those of you who know me so well for so many years, i am still the same to you and you won't see this side of me. But, somehow , with each passing day, i am indeed changing, i don't know it is for better or for worse of it is what is called "growing up" and realizing this is the world we live in today, but it is all happening.

First night i Slept in my Scrubs

Well, i had a beautiful day today. It is all because of the way it started. It all started yesterday evening in the labour ward. I was on-call last night and was anxiously waiting for a delivery. I didn't have my bleep on me. I needed to rest because i had Antenatal CLinic in the morning. In my desperation i crawled into my covers in my "gorgeous" hospital accomodation with my room phone by my ear waiting for a call. All night.. i couldn't sleep. You know.. the feeling when you know that you have to be up at any minute. And then the most beautiful thing happen. At 8 am ... after a full nights rest i was called into the Labour Ward to start my day with a birth. It was beautiful.
I realized how previledged i am to be a witness of the great miracle that is childbirth. Really starting to enjoy my obs and gynae posting. The teaching i am getting here is excellent.
and my day carried on with all these pregnant women.. this is really a beautiful field of medicine.

Which Desperate Housewife Am I???

okay, i didn't sleep. I took a quiz on the ABC Website. Guess which desperate housewife i am???

BREE!!!!!

It says:-

"You're the perfect wife, mother and housekeeper and just a bit of a control freak. Everyone admires you, but maybe they're just a little afraid of you. Step away from the souffle, ease up on the hairspray, and learn to go with the flow"

Hrmmm???? What do u think???

Wigan Pies and Wigan Life

Well, as mentioned before i'm in Wigan. Completing my 4th week now. I am thrilled to go back to Manchester tomorrow. It's been a pretty relaxed week. Did get an afternoon off which i spent shopping in Wigan with the rest of the girls here. lolz...
i got stuck in my shirt. I'm serious. I was trying this fitting corset top thingy at river island and i could get it on but... not offf!!!
no no, i'm not fat. It's just that it's fitting and it couldn't get past my chest let alone my shoulders... i can't believe how i put it on in the first place. I was so mortified trying to yank it off without ripping it.
At the same time i was thinking about how everyone outside was like waiting for me.. so i started to panic.. haaha finally i relaxed and yanked it off without a rip but a scratch by the tag! "ouch"!
I purchased my first wigan pies with yvinne today... oh no.. i just realized we left it in yvinne's car oh no. ... her car's gonna smell like pie....
i'm so full right now. I drank half a carton of orange juice... not a wise move.
I have 2 oven's (one in my flat and one in my friend's flat) here which is not functional. Made numerous attempts to cook this hot spicy smokin' pizza.
I put it in the oven and wait for it to cook... my mouth watering thinking about it
and it has always been a brick when i reach it 20 mins later
I KNOW HOW TO OPERATE AN OVEN.
lolz.. they are just faulty.
I'm going to sleep.
night people

Notice to Everyone Who Reads this Site

I went thru a temporary spell where i was too busy having fun to write about fun... (blogging).
I will start blogging again in February. Just a little update to all about what i have been up to. I've been enjoying Manchester! The new Hilton has opened over this period of time. I have tried the food and the club on the 23rd floor with the most spectacular view of Manchester. Absolutely breathtaking.
I've had a couple of exams.
I went back to Malaysia over Christmas. Had a wonderful time with my family.
Had an incredibly long transit in the dubai airport. Killed time by shopping. Whoopsie!
Feel asleep fer a bit.... i woke up to find myself surrounded by the Malaysian army.. goodness me!
I feel i'm growing more. Not sideways or in height but as a person.
Currently in Wigan doing an Obs and Gynae posting with Yvinne.
Living in hospital accomodation and eating microwave food. The toilet in our particular flat is way below par... eeech.. but, i must not be so picky and pampered so i'm dealing with it.
Seeing babies ( i lurve that!!!!)
Great consultant~!
By the way, before this posting i did a Neurosurgery posting with a remarkable surgeon. I am very inspired by him. Even may consider neurosurgery.
My toenails need repainting..
I got a horrible cold.. still there.. *cough*.. incredibly high fever.. .
Had a beautiful walk in the snow of Manchester (perhaps it had something to do with my cold)
Bought a cool monopoly set.. electronic!!!... played it a total of 3 times. That was the end of it.
We've had interesting visitors to manchester... william, kit chung, see lina, maria , amylia, gee, etc. Really brought sparkle here.
We had a christmas gift exchange as usual.
i need to go do my PBL. and get some rest. I am still feverish. Muacks all

Happy Happy Birthday to A Mooo MOo

Happy Birthday Lena Ngu~!~!~!~

Manchester Kiss

Just watch it!@~!~! trust me on this~!~!~!

IN LOVE???

HEADLINES HEADLINES: THE NEW COUPLE IN MANCHESTER~!~!~!

YOU HAVE GOT TO SEE THIS VIDEO. JUST WATCH IT!

September Babies

HAN SIAN

KAR XIAN

YEE YIN

So, these were the 3 birthdays we celebrated over a few days:) An italian dinner and a spanish dinner.. hmmm yum yum (now i'm thinking about food again)...:)

After the dinners we really "celebrated" the birthdays. However, on KX and YY's birthday, it seemed like it was Raymonds birthday..... he got a little tipsy.. twas so funny.....heeeheh

He was all light and giggly:) and wobbly.. so, went i took him up the stairs.. to the loo.. (... the guys took him in .. i just helped him up and down the stairs)... well on the way down, he fell.. and i tripped as well coz of that and we both ended up on the stairs...lol

and of all the things to do... he didn't get up... he lurched up.. heehe going straight for the beer kegs (empty thank goodness) arranged at the corner of the stairs.. (who does that?)

causing one of em to roll off and knock me in the leg.. "ouch!@!@" lol..

He continued to entertain us.. and be frightened by the bouncer...

It was a really really good night at Relish... one of the best nights out i think:) very chilled

later on when we were catching taxi home.. it was practically impossible to get one. so i called a company and got a van like thing coz there were quite a few of us. Just as i get the cab and am on the phone with the company... we loose one of them. Dissappered without a word... Eventually, we found out that he went back to Relish and begged the bouncer to let him pee.. hahaa.. (wasn't Ray)

how cute????

After all that we came back to Squires court for some indo mee.. telur and sausages..

How Malaysian~!~!~!

Medics Pyjama Party~!

hi hi hi people so i'm back. Yeah, haven't blogged in a while... that just means i've been too busy having fun to write about the fun i've had... *wink*
So, all in our pj"s and fluff fluff we headed out by taxi (oh goodness no way was i gonna be sitting in the tram~!~!~!) and found ourselves at Tribeca. The city was flooded by pyjama hotties
lol!@!@!@
So, it was a good night. Team Malaysia met up with our old PBL buddies.. Adam and Andy... Adam was just too beautiful for words...
Enjoy:-

Adam, Andy and I

Me and my "little Miss NaughTy"... (looks closely at her shirt:))

Stephenie, Me and Yvinne

Twas quite a nice night.. weeeeeee :)

loya=lousy

Just back. The last couple of days have been a real whirlwind for me. Monday was classes and followed by a "thrilling" time to stand in a queue at uni and a night of cooking....

After a late night.. and another late night and the late late night of Han Sian's birthday. . . Tribeca it was~!~!~! not too bad a night for a weekday pubbin'.. followed by Rheumatology bedside teaching today.. . exhausted...

but still

can't stay still

tonight's the Medic's Pyjama Pub Crawl. Goin' fer it. Had to go out to get some jammies. I can't be wearing my shorts and vests kinda pj's out in the UK can i now? so, after a vege'licious Katsouri lunch.. spent the afternoon in La Senza~!~! choice was pretty limited but was not bothered to go searching...

funny thing happened...

the sales person and the security guard started talking to me ... since i was taking like ages to decide

Him: hmmm... you really want pretty pyjamas don't you?

Me: no no no, it's for a pub crawl *gosh embarrased*

Him: i c i c. Why not u get that one? I just got it for my girlfriend (pointing at this cutesy wutesy purply.. light purple one with eeyore on it)...

Me: hmmm, maybe (in my head- no way am i going cutey cutey.. can't pull it off.. added to that purple.. i'd never hear the end of that from raymond~!~!~!)

haahaha..

well, feeling damn LOYA now.. nauseouS AFTER THE Tram ride home.

had to stand all the way

*bleah*

btw, Jason is now know as Mr. Idiot. Ask yvinne and me for details heheheh (* Jason dun marah ya?)

HOPE TONIGHT'S GONNA BE GOOD

* i gotta stop with the late nights~!~!~! as the brits would say : totally knackered

and the malaysians: letih gila

xoxo

Charlene